I'm going to tell you anyway, because that's the sort of thing that I do.
Thursday night I realized I was ridiculously thirsty. I was thirsty as though I had been walking around in the desert for the last two weeks. I figured if I just went to bed it would pass. Friday morning it had not. So I had some juice, some coffee and several cups of tea. And a soda. I also ate. I ate a plum, a bagel and a few other (thousand) things. I kept eating because somehow I thought I would feel better.
Do you want to know the one thing I didn't try? Drinking a glass of water. In fact, I can't even remember the last time I drank a full glass of water. It's been at least a week. Probably longer.
A few moments ago, I drank three sips of water, enough to take the three Advil I just downed for the headache I have. Still have? Have again? I don't know, I've lost track. I've had more headaches in the last few weeks than there have been actual days to have them. (Yes, I'm aware that's not really possible.)
Unrelated, I really need to cut my fingernails. They aren't really that long. They aren't like the fake nails you see on women sometimes or anything like that. But they're too long for me. Usually I can tell my nails are too long when I can't get my contacts out of my eyes without nearly scratching my cornea.
Incidentally, I have no idea if I can scratch my cornea by taking out my contacts with too long fingernails. I probably can't blind myself either, but sometimes I worry about this, too.
On Monday night, the first night removing my contacts hurt, I promised myself I'd cut my nails on Tuesday. I was too tired to remain standing for another minute, so it would have to wait. Then I repeated this on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. It's Saturday afternoon and my nails are getting in the way as I type this.
And those few anecdotes completely sum up how I've been.
The sun is finally shining today. I was outside in it for a little while today and it felt so good on my face that it practically made me cry. It felt like a small glimmer of hope after a long, cold, dark winter.
I'm going to go back outside. I'm going to drink some water, cut my nails and then go stand in the sun.
I'm tired of how I've been. I'm going to try to be something else now.
I'm linking up with the Yeah Write Moonshine weekend grid. Join us. It's a fun, no pressure, hangout, no judging place to meet great writers who, as it happens, inspire me to be a better person pretty damn regularly.
Also, happy birthday, Erica!!