Last week of 2010

Here we are, the year about to end. I had intended, by now, to have compiled a list of action items that would make my 2011 goals more attainable, but that didn't happen. Instead, I have spent the better part of the last few weeks working, thinking about work, complaining about work, preparing for the holidays (or deliberately avoiding holiday prep), or just trying to not appear like the mental case I'm pretty sure I am. And I made felt food. This is an exhausting undertaking to say the least. The fact that I have not been institutionalized is a testament to just how strong I am.

But now I must truly get to it - planning for the new year. I've reflected a great deal on how I've gained back much of the weight I lost in October due to some very bad habits. I've also been spending time thinking about the many young people who are no longer with us. I can no longer count on one hand the number of people my age who have lost a parent this year or who have themselves passed away. I don't pretend to know enough about any of them (ok, except one person) to know why they are no longer with us. But I know this much: I am not living as healthy a lifestyle as I could and I am not encouraging my family to live a healthy lifestyle.

I realize that no amount of healthy living can save any one of us from our ultimate fate. I know that if it's our time, it's our time, end of story. But I also know that much of what I do is within my control and I'm wasting time and energy doing things that are in no way good for me. I am letting my child do things that I know are not good for him. I am not encouraging my husband to do better things, rather I'm encouraging him to do things that I want to do, even when I know they are not good for us.

I guess what it all comes down to is that everything I posted previously as my goals for the new year are really just subheadings of my main goals for the rest of my life.

Live healthy. Live simply. Enjoy moments.

Happy New Year to you and thank you for spending time on this journey with me.