Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The first day of the rest of my life?

Tomorrow is supposed to be the big day. I'm supposed to begin my path to a healthier me. I was considering an all out blitz, using the Fat Smash Diet to jump right in. I've failed at every diet I've ever done. The main reason for that, I think, is diving in too fast, too crazy, too ALL IN. So I'm going to try something different.

I'll follow the FSD at dinner since Husband would like to do it and it works for him. During the day, I'll continue to eat down the food stash in the house (so I continue to chip away at the goal to not be wasteful, to not spend so much money, etc.), try to make healthy choices, avoid take out and all that. If I try to do FSD and there are things in the house to be eaten, they will taunt me and slowly drive me insane. And while I know that is a crazy thing to have happen (and I'm not talking about a candy bar or something, I'm thinking specifically of the homemade chicken soup in there), excepting my crazy is probably a better bet than ignoring it.

I'd like to say I'm going to work out and and lose a zillion pounds, but I know myself far too well to actually think that will happen. However, common sense tells me that if I eat well, practice portion control, don't get the take out and fast food, I can't help but lose weight. And things will calm down (I think, I hope...) and I'll find time to work out. Not necessarily every day, but sometimes. That is just going to have to do for now.

I've said similar things before. That I'm not going to let my insanity get in the way of making real progress towards goals that I have to keep. And then insanity sets in, giving way to failure and eventually even lower self esteem. So this time I'm going to set my goal as simply to do better. Hopefully it will work this time. For some reason, I believe myself more today than I have any other time I've said it.

Maybe believing in myself is what I've been lacking. Maybe tomorrow really is the first day of the rest of my life.


  1. Lol..I just read your blog. You're a good writer! I know exactly where you're coming from because frankly when it comes to "junk food" I lack a lot of self control. The times I have done a "diet" and stuck to it like no other, it was because I REALLY wanted it. I think it all starts with your frame of mind. You either want to lose weight or you don't. And unfortunately losing weight and eating healthy means sacrifice (which is NOT fun) however once you start seeing some results, the sense of accomplishment is overwhelming!

    I too have all or none thinking and it's not a good thing to have. I have learned after all these years...I can keep "dieting" the rest of my life off and on, or I can look at eating healthy and making better choices part of a lifestyle.

    Also, I'm not sure if you've heard of Paul McKenna. He touts weight loss in his book by just slowing down your eating and truly stopping when you're full. I tried it for about a week and was amazed at how soon I got full just by eating slower. Many people on his program still eat macaroni and cheese, etc and lose weight simply because they are eating less. This doesn't help the "healthier" you part but it could be a start. I think the problem is telling ourselves what we can't have all the time. It only makes us want it that much more.

    Either way, I wish you well in your endeavors. :) I am currently working on the same endeavor. lol.

  2. Oh and P.S. -When I did the Body for Life program...they suggest taking a "before" picture in a bikini and putting it on your fridge. If that doesn't motivate you, I don't know what will! :)

  3. I think if I put a picture of myself in a bikini on my fridge, it would actually collapse under the weight. But yes, I agree, portion control is a big part of it. Hopefully I'll find some!!

    Thanks for the support!